I screwed up....

So I'm putting this here in hope that the people that it's aimed at see it.. i'll link this on twitter and dailybooth where they will probably find it. Although might not.. so i might just link them directly... either way.

Dear you 3,

I screwed up, I know I did, and after talking to one of you I know that I screwed up more than I thought. So lets go through everything and then if you still hate me then fine. I can live with that, as long as you know everything.


Huddersfield.

Right so in huddersfield i ditched you completely. now let me tell you why.

The day before when I was upset anyways I was upset because I thought that I had completely screwed things up with my Dad and it was still on my mind alot at huddersfield so when 2 of you were complaining about being in huddersfield saying things like why would you go to uni somewhere outside of leeds when leeds has perfectly good unis i got annoyed, being tired and having alot on my mind, plus people whining about being given the opportunity to look around a uni outside of leeds just kind of annoyed me. Now i'm not using having things on my mind as an excuse here, because I know that is exactly what you're thinking, i'm just laying out the facts. Also, I kind of wanted to catch up with mel, my friend from high school as i've barely seen her since starting college and it was a perfect opportunity to catch up with her. So I took the opportunity.


Dailybooth.

I'm sure you've all seen what I wrote on my dailybooth, if not then it's been deleted now anyways so it doesn't matter. But anyways..

I know I shouldn't have written that, but I was venting, which I know is no excuse. I shouldn't have written what i wrote, it wasn't fair at all to write that. I don't even really remember writing it if i'm honest. I was extremely tired and when i'm tired i get angry more easily and i complain alot more and i'm just overall over dramatic. And the majority of what I wrote I didn't mean, I was just tired and a little annoyed at the complaining that was going on around the uni, I did hear alot of it at the times when I overheard you talking. And I'm not sure if you noticed but i did kind of isolate myself from everyone in our class whilst on that trip.... anyways, back to the point. I know i shouldn't have written what I wrote, it wasn't fair for me to say it and I didn't mean half of what i said, I was tired and over emotional. I'm sorry.


Thursday.

I knew on thursday you weren't going to want to talk to me. I didn't know if you had seen my dailybooth or twitter or anything so i was a little worried as to if you were going to say anything at all to me. And I figured out straight away that you were annoyed at me. I'm really sorry, really I am.


So thats all the explaining I can really do over here... plus it is 1am I don't really remember what else I've done wrong. I know i've done alot and i'm a total bitch and you probably all hate me more than anything else in this world.


but i'm sorry, really I am, I'm so so sorry. I actually don't think i've been so sorry in my entire life before. I was a total bitch and got annoyed over petty little things, and i'm sorry. Really. I am so sorry.

-Laura x